This is copied from What Is The Blasphemy of The Holy Spirit, seems it may belong here.

As the child of a scientist, I've always been driven to "get the facts, check out the evidence, and then be ready to reinterpret it all as 'new facts' become available".

It's very exciting to constantly learn more of Yahweh and His ways BUT everything new I learned changed all I knew before. I got very frustrated frequently until I finally challenged Yahweh (what incredible cheek, hmm?) by saying, "You want me to share the news and knowledge of You, how can anyone do that when there are so many ways to look at things?! How can I tell without knowing ALL of the truth?!" He started FLOODING me with knowledge and understanding... it took less than 15 seconds for me to be on my knees by my bed, heart pounding, crying out, "STOP, PLEASE STOP, it's too much, I can't handle this!" I felt like I was going to literally explode!

The only thing I have of that experience in the way of "knowledge and understanding" is how horrifying tragedy plays a part in His plan - not whether he sends, allows, or uses it so much as why (how it fits). I think this is because I keep finding so many people whose lives are daily terror, tragedy, and hopelessness. But guess what? I don't really have a way to tell these people what I was shown, it wasn't for me to "explain" to them.
What happened is that I now have confidence of exactly WHO is in charge of ALL THINGS. He will show me what I need to know when I need to know it, He will open my understanding of the right things at the right time. I just need to keep studying and obey what He's already shown me. Guess there's truth in that old saying, "You couldn't handle the truth if I told you."

Just last night something happened that showed me this again. My 18 yo loves laws and rules. We were discussing grace and the law when he suddenly closed his eyes, covered his head with his arms and said, "Wait, wait! Let me think, hold on, I have to try to absorb this!" I felt overwhelmed with love and compassion mixed with amusement for him at that moment and it made me wonder, is this how my Heavenly Father felt about me that day?

[This message has been edited by tedack (edited 07-06-2005).]